Monkey See, Monkey Do

2009-01-14T08:52:00.004+07:00

OMG
its time for kolokium, again.
i honestly dont understand what the fuss is about.
the admin people said that its just a formality, that all we have to do is make our proposal and present it, so we can get the grade for the 1 SKS that otherwise we would be missing from the Kolokium class.
whatever.

haahhhh, anyway, im so excited about getting this over with. i think one of the reasons that i've been getting nasty headaches is because i keep on procrastinating getting ready for kolokium, and procrastinating takes up a lot of energy, you know? i'll be glad to put all this stuff behind me, even if only for awhile.

then i can get back to reading the twilight saga and downloading songs without guilt.

oh, and there are plans to go to Java Jazz thats gonna be on March, there's Jason Mraz and Brian McKnight but the tickets are pretty hefty so i guess i'll have to save up... okky and ical are all worked up about it, but dede and fahmi dont really seem that excited so that leaves the three of us undecided, i guess..

hyam hyam...

im currently listening to Supermassive Black Hole by Muse. i guess thats another reason for my headache. hahaa.

2009-01-13T12:28:00.003+07:00

okay, so we all know that i am obsessed with Twilight. i am embarassed to admit that i was only interested in the saga after i watched the movie, although i think i saw the books way before the movie was out, and i was like, whoaa weird books, its got moony names and creepy black-and-red covers. and then i looked at the back cover, and then i was like, okaay.. creepy vampire mumbo jumbo..
obviously the saying "dont judge a book by its cover" just kicked me in the butt.
and it doesnt help that its vacation and i have nothing to do except download stuff through torrent and... what was that? oh yeah, read twilight. i got so excited watching twilight, and i kept on whining about watching it again, and again to dede, that now he's downloading the movie for me. he said, it was to anticipate watching it a third time. huh, coward.
*sigh, i love twilight.

2008-12-02T19:39:00.000+07:00

the movie.. was not what we expected. it wasn't scary at all. a bit.. dissapointing.

2008-11-30T09:33:00.002+07:00

hohoho

its been a long long time since my last post..

hmm lets see,,
the most exciting thing that's about to happen is:
im gonna watch a zombie movie at the inaff (Indonesian International Fantastic Film Festival). yesterday i already watched a thailand horror movie from inaff, called Coming Soon. omg it was so scary that im still paranoid until now. im scared of going into the shower, i hate the dark even more, and i keep on imagining that dede is actually the ghost of the lady that got accidentally hanged in a shooting from a pretend-horror movie , and that the ghost is only pretending to be dede so that im caught off-guard.

oh dear.
i only just recovered from watching mirrors.

2008-10-21T19:44:00.000+07:00

Some things don't work out.
I was watching an episode of Friends. Im not sure what season it was, the situation was that Rachel had just broken up with her boyfriend Joshua (he played Micha Barton’s dad in The O.C) and the reason that he broke her up was because Rachel got freaked out that Ross was getting married, and she asked Joshua to marry her. Joshua of course got even more freaked out and broke her up. Rachel said to Phoebe and Monica, that the real reason that she was sad wasn’t because she had lost Joshua, but because she wasn’t really handling the fact that Ross was getting married very well. It turns out that Rachel still hoped that she would somehow get back together with Ross again, as they always did. They broke up, but somehow they always patched things up again.
And it struck me really bad when I watched that; why is it that some things don’t work out? Why do we get our hearts broken over and over again, only to dust ourselves up and pick up the pieces. Why is it that some things are meant to be, only for a teenie weenie moment? And after that, they dissolve in nothingness.

2008-10-21T11:46:00.002+07:00

NEW HALF-SEMESTER RESOLUTION

so, after going through the first midterm, which went pretty badly, i have decided to make some resolutions.

number one.
im going to at least try to come to all of my classes, including the morning classes too, the ones at 7 (yes, the little devils they are)
before this, i didnt even try getting up in the morning, cuz i knew that i'd be too exhausted to wake up and take a bath and go to campus at that hour. it just takes too much effort. i dont know why, but i've been really tired really easily lately. dunno..
so now, im going to try to wake up. even if i only slept 2 hours that day. at least im gonna set some alarms so i wake up, even for the briefest most vague moment.

number two.
im going to sit in the front of all my classes. usually if im sitting in the back, i get distracted easily, or i start doodling in my organizer, which is so not productive. i think im gonna buy a new ringed notebook so im more in the mood to take notes, hee hee..

well thats all for now.
hmm, lets see if i can come up with some more..

2008-10-21T11:42:00.002+07:00

its now recess
we'r still doing our presentation.
not that any of us are actually doing anything about it, but you know,
just stalling away the time,
too bad too, cuz i already have a lunch date, i'll just have to sneak out whenever it is naturally possible to do so.
hmmm
im so hungry
havent eaten anything yet, my first midterm was at 7 so i practically rushed out of my room half asleep.

2008-10-19T08:09:00.002+07:00

the one thing that i hate most about myself is my ability to procrastinate beyond reason.
it gets really annoying, but i cant help it!! how can i stop this?
im always putting things off until the last minute.
like right now, i have a ton of work to do, including tubes and to study for my midterms (which start tomorow) and i still have time to blog.
hmmm...
cant.stop.running.away.from.responsibilities.help.me.

2008-10-18T19:35:00.008+07:00

its been more than a year, and i've rediscovered my love of spilling out my most inner thoughts on the internet again, thanks to my Creativity and Innovation class which requires me to write a blog.
anyway, the current issue of the moment is: what you say, you can never take back.
yes or no?

i've recently gone through an unfortunate experience.
i think i might've deserved it, but not completely. i did not perform as i was hoped, and i was told off in front of several people. when i asked about further explanation, i was given an attitude.
anyway, the point is, that experience made me look from a different perspective of them, one that i dont think i can ever turn away from again. its just really hard to look at them the same way from before this happened.
so i guess the advice from my childhood friend Novi Rahmadhani is true. She said: "never hurt anyone's feelings, because once you do, there's no turning back the time to undo it, and there's no cure for it either. you're just stuck that way, the both of you, forever."
so, we have to be careful about what we say, and how we say it. i can never meet them and look them in the eye and be the way i was to them before. when i look at either of them, i will always remember that hallway, and the people looking, and the windy afternoon which i walked with the others to the front gates, crying. its true, words hurt more than sticks and stones.

2007-08-06T18:17:00.000+07:00

According to the Pirate Monkeys Inc. Harry Potter personality test, I am...

Harry Potter Personality Quiz by Pirate Monkeys Inc.

2007-06-24T23:44:00.000+07:00

‘Hurt or be hurt.’

Someone mentioned that to me in a conversation today.
Now, I’m not really a pessimist on love. True, I don’t really believe in, you know, unconditional, pure-everlasting love, the whole love-will-conquer-all Disney jazz, but I still believe in it nonetheless.
I mean, there has got to be love somewhere in this world, right?
Well, that just goes to show, never listen to advice about love from someone who just had his heart broken.
Only a fool would listen to that kind of junk.
But now that I’ve had a couple hours to ponder over it, I guess it’s not completely untrue. There is some truth in it, although the phrase might not apply to every relationship in the world.
In love, I guess it’s either one or the other for most people. You either hurt someone, or you yourself get hurt.
It’s just the way it is.

2007-06-20T21:15:00.000+07:00

I woke this morning at 6.36 AM.

Being a pesimistic person that I was, I didn't think I could make it. What with having to be on the premises at 7 o'clock sharp and everything, and the obsessive punctuality that SBM has (the doors are locked at 7 on-the-dot, there are even staff members that hang around there in the morning to do the merciless door-locking), its crazy to even think about getting ready at this hour.

But, I did anyway.

I managed to shower (lets not go into details) and threw on whatever piece of clothing I saw first when I opened my closet (lucky for me it was a decent shirt and black trousers).

I ran to the car and drove off like hell (well, at least as fast as my Mommy would permit me to).

No red lights.

(Almost) no annoying motorcycles.

And the most amazing thing?

I made it.

At 6.59 AM - breathless, hair rather ruffled, and still with a just-woke-up-from-bed face - I stood in front of the doors to the auditorium.

I made it to class that morning.

Man, was I lucky.

2007-06-19T03:43:00.000+07:00

I'm depressed.

A handful of people would know why.

I really need a vacation. And coffee. And chocolate. Lots of chocolate.

Oh, and shopping.

Must go shopping.

Anyway...

I can't believe that we had our first midterms. Accountancy. On a Monday.

It's only been two weeks of classes, and they gave us a friggin midtest.

To make matters worse, I forgot my KSM and my calculator, without which I would not have been able to calculate all those transactions. So, there goes half an hour of my precious time going back to my room to get them.

But its okay.
I got all the problems done. Some I actually thought I did decently. I knew, obviously, due to the fact that both collumns had equal numbers after I calculated them all.

Yippppieeee!

2007-06-05T01:07:00.000+07:00

It's inhuman. Savage. Merciless. Cruel.

What am I talking about? The schedule of classes for my short semester.

I'm speechless.

2007-06-04T00:13:00.001+07:00

I'm so tired I can't sleep. What an irony.

Amusement parks really suck up all your energy.

Especially that last roller coaster ride. Wow.

Scream like hell? Check. Adrenaline rush? Check. Headache from head banged when roller coaster swerved left and right? Check.